Yesterday was a bad day

So, yesterday was a bad day for me. I usually don’t get angry but when it happens it is a fairly unpleasant experience. It becomes a feedback loop, I get angry that I am losing control and getting angry. Since I have gotten a few questions about it I will just go ahead and explain it once, publicly.

 

It started with my quarterly review; it wasn’t bad by any means. There was initially some confusion on what certain things meant. Once that was worked out I had already started getting worked up. I spend so much energy not letting things effect me that once they do I don’t have enough energy to contain it. So, I started the day upset about a non-issue (in fact some really good things came from my review that should make work pretty interesting for the next few months) and I realized I was getting upset for no reason, which pissed me off more. Then a few little things that normally would have just been a little annoying happened but in my current state of mind they just pissed me off. It really was quite ridiculous as anyone who watched me sulk all day is probably well aware of. For the most part I was able to avoid any outbursts that would cause permanent damage so that is good in hind sight. Once I got home I was able to spend some alone time thinking about how irrational I was being and slowly it calmed me down and worked itself out.

 

So… yeah, I am doing fine now. Just had a little hissy fit yesterday. Sorry if I was a dick, or spent any time bitching.

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Decisions, Decisions.

So, I am at a decision point with some stuff I am working on. Anyone that follows my tweets or status updates probably knows that I have been doing a bunch of SQL testing. Well, I have been writing the tests in VBScript to get them done quickly but the tests have gotten more complex due to authentication and encryption requirements that have not worked as I had hoped. So now with the time crunch I am in I have to make a decision… either throw what little elegance I was trying maintain out the window and slap this test suite together with batch/VBS scripts and duct tape, or throw away all of my personal time for the next 3 weeks and write it in C# or Python (another decision) to make it expandable and re-usable.

Thoughts / Questions / Suggestions? There are probably more variables involved then what I have listed so feel free to ask me to fill any specifics if you have a  suggestion.

NOTE: This is not a question about what language to use. It is a question of doing work that is a lower quality (but still totally usable and functional, just not expandable) then I prefer to meet a deadline that I set… or doing top tier work but having no personal time for the next 3 weeks.

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Honesty != Brutal Honesty

A recent conversation made me feel the need to speak about my opinion on the difference between simple honesty and brutal honesty. I believe that honesty is always welcomed and brutal honesty is never needed. What is the difference you ask? Well, brutal honesty implies a certain level of malice (to me at least). For example (albeit an extremely generic and over used one)… someone asks “Do these pants make me look fat?” An honest response could be “well, they aren’t the most flattering pants”, but a brutally honest response could simply be “yes”. There is a subtle difference, both are true statements, it is simply the delivery. You could take brutal honesty to an extreme by adding an insult to the statement (as some do) but regardless it isn’t necessary. Using the guise of honesty to convey an insult is cowardly in my opinion. I am annoyed by people who use “brutal honesty” as an excuse to be an asshole.

Just my two cents on the subject; always be transparent and honest, just choose the right delivery method. If you ever find yourself saying you were brutally honest take note you might have just been a complete jackass (purposefully or not).

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Workout for 20091105

Did my first workout last night, didn’t go super intense but still got a solid workout. What should have taken about 30 minutes took over 60 because I kept stopping and doing other things. It is like my mind was trying to find things to distract me to try to prevent me doing the workout. Felt pretty good afterwards. Decided I am not going to do cardio on workout days, at least not initially. Once I am in a little better shape I will probably add some form of cardio in but right now I think it would be a bit much for me.  Until I find a better way to present this data, it is a straight copy and paste:

20091105 wt
Bench Press x 12 80
Bench Press x 10 90
Bench Press x 8 100
Bench Press x 6 110
Bench Press x 12 100
Bench Press x 12 100
Intensity 7
Lat Pull down x 12 120
Lat Pull down x 10 130
Lat Pull down x 8 140
Lat Pull down x 6 150
Lat Pull down x 12 100
Lat Pull down x 12 100
Intensity 8
Shoulder Press x 12 100
Shoulder Press x 10 110
Shoulder Press x 8 120
Shoulder Press x 6 130
Shoulder Press x 12 60
Shoulder Press x 12 60
Intensity 8
Bicep Curl x 12 80
Bicep Curl x 10 90
Bicep Curl x 8 100
Bicep Curl x 6 110
Bicep Curl x 12 70
Bicep Curl x 12 70
Intensity 8
Triceps Push x 12 110
Triceps Push x 10 120
Triceps Push x 8 130
Triceps Push x 6 140
Triceps Push x 12 100
Triceps Push x 12 100
Intensity 8
Total Intensity 8

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Keep an eye on me

So, I am starting my workout routine again today… something I have tried to get back into multiple times in the past. I always seem to find an excuse to break the cycle and start skipping days and then eventually stop going all together. To help prevent that I am asking for your help. I am going to do a full workout on Tue/Thr/Sat and cardio Mon-Sat probably at night. So, each night you should see a tweet with a blog post with the stats of my workout as I try to track my progress. What I am asking is that if one morning you happen to notice I did not post a workout blog from the previous night… call me out. Hopefully knowing that someone is watching will help keep me from the “Oh…. well, I had X to do so I just skipped it today but I am totally doing it tomorrow!” excuse

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Article from MSN: “The Worst Interview Faux Pas” – Pisses me off

So I just read this article http://msn.careerbuilder.com/Article/MSN-2051-Interviewing-The-Worst-Interview-Faux-Pas since I have a few friends interviewing at different places and I was curious if it was worth forwarding out. For the most part it is a reasonable article but there are two very specific topics that really pissed me off when I read it.

Section 6: Poor Presentation, 3rd quote.

“I once had a recent graduate who looked fantastic on paper, but showed up wearing  flip-flops. During the interview, he would lean back in his chair, flex his hands over his head and he even said several curse words in his responses. It was so bad I e-mailed him afterwards to point out his most obvious blunders!” – Nickie Doria, marketing director for Emmer Development Corp.

Reading this quote actually made me think “Fuck You”.  Sure, I wore a suit to my interview for my current employer (whom I love and where I now wear flip-flops to work most days) to show respect but it probably wasn’t essential. They were hiring a specific talent, not a specific look. I am pretty sure I leaned back in my chair a bit since I was at ease and relaxed mostly. I avoided the F bomb or anything similar but even having that requirement is absurd. If you are hiring an adult, to do grown up things… language and attire should be no limitation. I will avoid my rant on curse words since I am strongly opinionated and could dedicate an entire post to that alone. The pretentious attitude that is conveyed in this quote really gets me fired up. So the gist of this one for me is… treat adults like adults, companies with restrictions and limitations so strict they are essentially treating their workforce like children strangle their talent  in my opinion. To the dude above that didn’t get the job… you didn’t really want to work there anyways (hah, like he will ever see my blog but whatever)

Section 8: Forgetting to clean up digital dirt, The entire section.

“Of course, for those who are MySpace and Facebook junkies, make sure your pages are set to the private setting. We actually had a girl apply for a leasing position with one of our companies, and she did very well during the interview. Later, the manager wanted to learn more about her, and found that her MySpace name was … well somewhat promiscuous at best! Needless to say, she never even got a call back! – Doria

Seriously, I want to slap this person. Who cares if she is a slut (what I get from the implication above)? That has nothing to do with her work. If she can close leases on properties fast enough to meet or beat quota then I don’t give a damn if she spends her weekend snorting coke off a bathroom urinal while getting double penetrated by Ron Jeremy and Peter North (to the people who instantly knew those names… you are sick, of course I referenced them so what does that say about me?). Someone’s personal life should not be a consideration in their employment. Sure, it can be a benefit for instance a digital designer who happens to have a large online gallery; but it should never detract. People who look at a facebook page and think oh noes, they have pictures playing beer pong… to them I say they are hypocrites. They do/did the same shit, they just don’t have the balls to take a picture of it and post it online for everyone to see the real them. Again, this one angers me because personal and work time are entirely different.

Sure, if there was a picture of them pissing in the coffee at work, that would be different… that directly affects them in a job related manner. However, if my picture is from a going away party for friend, where I happened to be chugging beer from a beer bong and couldn’t exactly stand up straight while doing it… well that shouldn’t matter. Tell me how doing that on a Friday night makes me less capable on Monday morning? If anything you should be worried about people who DO clean up their online digital presence, it means they believe they have something to hide and are willing to do so. Who do you want to hire… someone who believes they may be doing something wrong or unsavory but they are willing to simply hide it from you and attempt to live two separate lives essentially lying about their true nature OR someone who is open and honest with who and what they are and they embrace it?

Conclusion

The “conventional wisdom” relayed in the above statements really drives me nuts. We live in a free country but people’s personalities are so oppressed in the business culture (I will avoid another rant about this that could be another blog post). Companies that are growing, thriving, changing the world… I like to think they throw this “wisdom” out of the window and look at what the people they are interviewing can actually do while they are at work. Not how they look when they get to work, or what they do when they aren’t at work… neither of those matter. People who believe they do matter, are living in an age that has passed and will slowly die as they do.

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First Post

Just a quick post, blog is back up etc… I will work on the custom theme and some other stuff this or next weekend.

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